It’s been some time since I wrote anything on the blog or in my personal diary. But now there is a reason to write and it’s important for people to know.
Hugo Wolf famously wrote “To be sure, I appear at times merry and in good heart, talk, too, before others quite reasonably, and it looks as if I felt, too, God knows how well within my skin. Yet the soul maintains its deathly sleep and the heart bleeds from a thousand wounds.”
In this world when time is seen as everything and to spend it on a friend is a mean to your own failure, words of Hugo Wolf will amount to nothing. To find its meaning one has to witness unimaginable. I’ve seen people succumbing to their own emotions, helplessly screaming through their eyes for help. I never believed anyone to be so in this shrewd world until now.
I sought help for myself over years hoping that someone would understand me and will be there when I’ll be in shambles my friend will be there. But this isn’t a perfect world and for most part I faced the scare alone. I don’t blame them for anything. They have their own lives but certainly it was my fault that I never let anyone close enough to have that kind of confidence.
During a recent episode I was desperately looking for help and my friends were troubled with their own lives. So for first time I gathered enough courage and sought help from someone outside of my confidence circle. To my awe, they were helpful and not just in understanding my stand but in making me realize that I wasn’t alone.
If you too are battling against your own emotions and mood, please do not hesitate and talk to someone who you can trust. Their support can be a big help.